So this is my first post on my new blog. I thought keeping a blog would help me stay on track during the day because lately I've been having theses ridiculous peanut butter binges. I don't know why but peanut butter is my obsession among eating very little, working out, studying, reading, listening to music, watching movies, and other various activities. So I don't know if anyone will ever read this, but mainly its for me, if I do have any viewers, here's a shout out to all y'all! So I'm Sady, 20 years old, law student (believe it or not...hence the studying a lot), I weigh about 121 pounds according to this morning's weigh-in, I'm 5'6. My goal weight is 110. 11 pounds to go. I don't know how to get there. The last time I weighed that much I was probably 15. So it's going to be a lot of restricting, and working out. And a little support from all of you! Today I am feeling pretty good except for last night's binge, purge adventure. I think it's the weed. It sucks being a stoner, I just want to smoke all the time, but then when I'm high I get hungry, which is not good! But anyway, back to what i was saying, last night after gossip girl + joint, I had spoons of peanut butter, followed by three toasts covered in Nutella, which i then purged. I haven't purged in years, I mostly just restrict my intake, I don't not eat, because I've realized in terms of long term weight loss, not eating is just not the solution, but minimal eating is or else your metabolism slows down by a lot and you don't really end up losing much weight. Anyway the whole purging thing really freaked me out, I had no idea I was still capable of such a thing, and it made me realize that somewhere inside of me I am not the happiest person. I don't know what's going on...but i hope that blogging is going to help.
So its 10 :15 am, on a beautiful tuesday morning, I'm going to get up, have some breakfast, hit the gym and then get to studying :) I will post again tonight or tomorrow. Try to keep this everyday...
